The Uncertainty

Sometimes it is blurry up there ... or ... do I want to keep it this way..? It is just more relaxing to find out that you belong to your self ..keeping it within and digging it up quietly...for never being able to avoid the inevitable gives me the CREEPS most of the time .. and here I am trying to avoid it once more ... me , my self and what is going inside are thoughts and may be dreams on paper or merely in the void, it will still hang up in there blurry as it is .. or as I want it to be..........but at least ......warm & sweet.